UNTOLD..

I met him a half year ago.... First impression? Nah, just another typical guy nurse who used to wear white shirt. I find him quite funny especially when he do simple thing and yet can't do it perfectly but its highly entertaining. He's a FAIL!! haha As day goes by, as we go along together in our everyday field of work i had the chance to discover little things about him.. About his personality, his mood, the way he bully me, how talkative he is!! Well, that his kind of way of interaction... and one thing, He loves to watch beautiful and sexy girls!!
Then things suddenly changed. Things happened that i could never imagine to happen. We became more close, We often talk and message each other in phone. And during that time i can feel that there is something going on.. Its just like now were hiding in a place full of intrigue that if ever someone will catch us its DONE. were on the hot seat..  I don't know what to think or what to believe. Im in DOUBT.. doubt about him telling me that he LIKES me. Doubt whenever he says I MISS YOU..  but at the back of my mind i'm pushing myself to believe.. My heart beats fast every time he holds my hand.. and I smile inside whenever he make me feel that he CARES for me. And i want him to know that its truly appreciated.. he think his effort is never been recognized? he is definitely wrong because it MEANS so much...

Moments we've made, Stories we've said, laugh that we've shared is a very GREAT memory.




But i don't still understand why i can't express my feeling, I don't know what to say everytime he will ask me what i feel about him... I always say.. " hindi ko alam " "ewan ko.." " Naguguluhan ako.."
I know its a little bit unfair for him because he has no idea what i feel. He is in a kind of nowhere situation.
I realized maybe because i am not so sure that's why i cannot find the right word to say or maybe because of the fact that i am AFRAID... afraid to what people may say about us.. Afraid that, what if this is only a joke?
What if he likes me now and then tomorrow the feeling was gone. What if he's just fooling me around? What if i like him too will it lead to happy ending? or will it hurt too much? till i sob in pain.. There are so many what if's in my mind right now. and i know that feelings doesn't always last...
So for now, i will just ENJOY the moments... GO with the flow.. and STAY happy :)